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• Another Case of Cannot

  February 25, 2010 in Death, Fear

  Deep down at the bottom of happy, joyous and free lies fear; fear that if I were ever to throw my sobriety away I might never get it back.   It seems the older we get, the more times we relapse, the harder it is to come back and fully embrace recovery.  I suspect that, as [...] Read more »

• Travel Kicks My Ass

  February 15, 2010 in Gratitude, Spirituality

  I arrived home Saturday night, slept most of the day on Sunday and I’m still tired.  Overall I had a wonderful time though.  There was a little tension with one of my travel companions who I found to be astonishingly self-centered, but I’m sure I played a part in that.  Managed, in the end, to [...] Read more »

• Adventures in Sobriety

  February 9, 2010 in Gratitude, promises

  I never would have thought I’d have an opportunity like this again.  The end of my drug use, and even for the most part the first 3 years I’ve been sober, have been pretty uninteresting and I have actually become pretty resistant to change.  Variation kind of freaks me out.  I feel so secure in [...] Read more »

• Nothing That Three Million Dollars Won’t Fix

  February 5, 2010 in Brotherly Love, Resentment, Shortcomings

  I think I hate being in therapy.  I mean, they make you look at yourself!  And who wants to do that?  I thought I’d done well enough having gotten through the 4th step and, after all, I’m still sober.  I guess that isn’t entirely true.  After an hour and a half with Anita yesterday I [...] Read more »

• A Spiritual Foundation

  January 22, 2010 in Spirituality

  I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the value of anonymity.  I’m not altogether convinced that there really is such a thing; not in the absolute sense.  It exists in greater and lesser degrees and we see famous people straddle the line all the time.  In 12 step recovery we have secret code words and [...] Read more »

• Three

  January 15, 2010 in Uncategorized

  But one voice got through, caught her up by surprise
  It said, “Don’t hold us back we’re the story you tell,”
  And no sooner than spoken, a spell had been broken
  And the voices before her were trumpets and tympani
  Violins, basses and woodwinds and cellos, singing
  “We’re so glad that you finally made it here
  You thought nobody cared, but [...] Read more »

• This Page is Intentionally Left Blank and Other Self Contradictory Stuff

  January 7, 2010 in Perseverance

  It should have become clear to me a long time ago.  Perhaps it was and I simply hadn’t the willingness to do something about it, but it is clear now that I can benefit from therapy.  I don’t think I’ll make any significant gains in becoming happy without professional help.  So in addition to starting [...] Read more »

• Unmixed Attention

  January 3, 2010 in Early Recovery From Crystal Meth Addiction, Spirituality

  “Absolute unmixed attention is prayer.” -Simone Weil, Gravity and Grace
  I realized a long time ago that I can trace the decline of my spiritual health, and a decline in the quality and quantity of my writing, to the date I got a television.  For a good year and a half, writing was a form of [...] Read more »

• I Don’t Want to Pray for Him.

  December 28, 2009 in Courage, Resentment

  I am beyond furious and my sponsor is out of town.  It happened again.  I finally got last week’s paycheck cashed on Wednesday and today this week’s check bounced.  Obviously, in spite of what my employer says, I need to find a new job. Read more »

• Wishful Thinking

  December 26, 2009 in an aside

  I’d really like a job offer from Current Media. Read more »