Integrity

I don’t normally duplicate work I produce elsewhere, but there are only so many ways you can say the same thing.  In this case, it’s something I need to say in every channel I write in. Just like with drugs and alcohol, it seems to be a natural part of my character that until I have [...]

First of all, thank God for the steps! I wouldn’t be able to tell this story without them. I wouldn’t because I would be trapped in the story; sucked in to the familiar familial drama of the tree from which this nut fell. Last Friday night I had dinner with my sister and her two [...]

Funny how a lonely day, can make a person say, “What good is my life?” Funny how a breaking heart can make me start to say, “What good is my life?” Funny how I often seem to think I’ll never find another dream in my life, till I look around and see this great big world is part of me and my life. Sometime when I [...]

This morning’s post is probably more anecdotal and personal than most of what I write here.  I know I tend toward a rigorous focus on ‘the solution’.  It is , really, an essential part of my recovery as well as being an entertainment.  It is a few minutes spent with close attention to my spiritual [...]

Yield and overcome; bend and be straight; empty and be full; wear out and be new; have little and gain; have much and be confused. Therefore wise men embrace the one and set an example to all. Not putting on a display, they shine forth. Not justifying themselves, they are distinguished. Not boasting, they receive [...]

All men may err; but he that keepeth not his folly, but repenteth, doeth well; but stubbornness cometh to great trouble. -Sophocles, Antigone It is hard to understand how someone so clever, so witty, so completely charming and attractive as I am, someone so devoid of malice, someone through whom goodness and beneficence shines like [...]

is to stay sober and to help other alcoholics (and addicts) achieve sobriety. When you’re first coming in, when you’re on the morning side of the mountain, tradition 5 seems like the dumbest or most obvious thing in the world. Duh. There is a song by Patty Griffin, I’ve talked about this before, called [...]

I have a friend, Joe K. who has been sober something like 38 years. Joe has worked with hundreds of alcoholics and addicts, not just here in Boise, but all over the country and continues to do so. A couple of weeks ago I was in a meeting and met this dynamite guy [...]

I finished writing my 4th step today. Resentments and fear anyway. Enough to get started since there is a good reason to get it out of the way. Sex inventory, like sex, can wait till later. Much, much later. But as I was sitting here tonight, answering a couple of [...]

I think the tale of MethedUp is nearing an end. I’m not that methed up anymore. I’m setting up a new home at The Last Chance Texaco but will keep posting here till the pumps open. My new email address is OutOfGas @ theLastChanceTexaco.com