Detox

I’ll be gone for awhile. I’m checking in to a rehab and I expect I’ll be gone for at least a month. I just need to do something about this problem before someone does something about it for me. I’m not happy. I’m not content. I don’t want to go on living like this. And while [...]

If you had asked me yesterday at this time how I was doing I would have told you that, for the moment anyway, I had been relieved of that odd hook that has always followed me with this addiction; the regret that I had not gotten high one more time. It left me temporarily. It’s [...]

I’m not sure if I know what I was getting myself in to moving into the Compas House. It’s a theraputic community run by S.H.I.P., Inc. which is a not-for-profit here in Boise that helps people in recovery stay sober and have access to affordable housing. The “TC” includes housing which I share [...]

On one of the blogs I love I noticed this morning that I’m apparantly not the only one going through this. I guess things are shitty all over. Oddly, that makes me feel good. I don’t sleep through the night anymore. I have a hard time concentrating. It may take me [...]

This is day 5. I can’t tell you about the first 4 days. I wasn’t here for them. Not much anyway. I spent the better part of them sleeping. And eating. I think I’ve gained ten pounds since I last used. I want to get high so [...]