Crystal Meth

I went to Gooding recently to speak at the treatment center I went to, which in and of itself was really cool. Even cooler is the fact that out of that someone decided that they wanted me to show them how I’ve stayed sober. And even cooler than that, the coolest thing, something [...]

is to stay sober and to help other alcoholics (and addicts) achieve sobriety. When you’re first coming in, when you’re on the morning side of the mountain, tradition 5 seems like the dumbest or most obvious thing in the world. Duh. There is a song by Patty Griffin, I’ve talked about this before, called [...]

I have a friend, Joe K. who has been sober something like 38 years. Joe has worked with hundreds of alcoholics and addicts, not just here in Boise, but all over the country and continues to do so. A couple of weeks ago I was in a meeting and met this dynamite guy [...]

I’m terrified of trusting God with anything important. I shouldn’t be. I have an indication or two that He’s at work in my life, yet I struggle with letting go of something so big as what I’ve been facing. And why? Because I don’t have His phone number? He doesn’t [...]

in about three days. Sunday I started feeling poor and by Monday morning I was well and truly sick. A trip to the clinic Monday afternoon confirmed what I already knew and put me at home in bed with a fistful of antibiotics to prove it. Since I got home from [...]

Meth is succeeding where AIDS ultimately failed: the virtual psychological paralysis, through fear, of a generation of gay men. Crystal meth seduces the user with an overload of the energising feel good chemical, dopamine, into the pre-frontal cortex of the brain, inducing an intensely euphoric wave of positive energy that liberates him from his fears - [...]

remove every doubt that keeps us apart I wish you could know what it means to be me Then you’d see and agree that every man should be free. I Wish I Knew How it Feels to Be Free, Jay Haggard It’s funny how a few days of Lexapro and a little crush can lift one’s spirits. Despite the [...]

Ive been knocked out of the race But Ill get better” Sting, Lithium Sunset I’m trying to give myself a break, because I had bronchitis and all. But objectively, I feel like what’s going on is clinical depression. When I got to treatment I was full on manic. That slowed down. I bounced [...]

The last thing I did before I took the 14 hour bus ride to Pocatello was get high. That’s sexy isn’t it? Shooting up in the bathroom of a Greyhound station? There’s a way to meet quality friends. So then I’m trapped on a bus for fourteen hours wishing I could fuck the [...]

I’ll be gone for awhile. I’m checking in to a rehab and I expect I’ll be gone for at least a month. I just need to do something about this problem before someone does something about it for me. I’m not happy. I’m not content. I don’t want to go on living like this. And while [...]