The Last Chance Texaco

New socks and underwear

Chris — Sun, 30 Nov 2008 22:30:40 +0000

Few other things make me feel as secure and contented as new socks and underwear. Although I’ve had a few new socks and a couple of pair of boxers a couple of times since I got sober, there were none in the 2 years before and no new t-shirts at all. Yesterday I threw them all [...]

Do I now, or am I even willing to?

Chris — Wed, 26 Nov 2008 16:28:29 +0000

I’m trying a little expirement in extreme practice of the principles in a specific area of my life that I requires specific behavior that very, very few people, addict or no, ever do. Am I above the law? The practice of humility requires that I answer no to that question. And if I am not above [...]

What I could not do for myself

Chris — Wed, 19 Nov 2008 02:02:41 +0000

I’m still fuzzy on the details. I remember getting up the next morning and talking to my sponsor and talking to my dad. I remember dad saying to find the right car and between the two of us we’d fiind a way to get it financed. I remember heading back to the dealership where I [...]

Still OK

Chris — Sat, 15 Nov 2008 03:31:13 +0000

There are things in life, situations, whatever, that I still don’t navigate so well. I don’t know if that’s the part where I’m “recovering” and have a ways to go, or if it’s simply endemic to being an addict, recovering or not, or if perhaps I’m simply an outright mental defective. You’d think I could [...]

Day 666 off crystal meth - “Well. Who could be responsible for that?”

Chris — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 06:20:13 +0000

Remember when that Australian guy called practically every recovery blogger on the internet, “Agents of Satan”? Yeah, well, agent of Satan, reporting for duty. I was thinking about some of the things I’ve learned and how far I’ve come in all these days and, I don’t know, I’m pretty grateful. One of the things I’ve learned is that [...]

Sober Sunday - I’m hosting this week’s Sober Salon at thesecondroad.org

Chris — Sun, 09 Nov 2008 05:14:58 +0000

Tomorrow night at 8:30 EST I’ll be hosting the weekly salon chat over at The Second Road. Now don’t be intimidated by the fact that you need to create a user name in order to join the chat. Just plan a little bit ahead to get that done before. So that you can be there on [...]

My Shining Palace

Chris — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 07:55:38 +0000

I don’t know how I’ve never happened on this verse before. I’m not a huge Millay fan. That probably has something to do with it. I heard a recording of her reading her own work one time and I couldn’t stand her voice. Plus I thought the poem was stupid. But this one, Fig Two, [...]

Missing the Mark - but not so much

Chris — Mon, 03 Nov 2008 15:04:43 +0000

Still missing the mark. But that’s fine. I set it pretty high. I didn’t actually expect I’d reach it. My theory that I tend to come in under the mark, but always by some ratio, seems to hold weight. Going to bed last night in clean sheets and waking up this morning to a clean [...]