Comments on: Change for the Better http://thelastchancetexaco.com/principles/hope-principles/change-for-the-better/ Tales of Recovery from Crystal Meth Addiction Sat, 21 Jan 2012 08:36:59 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 By: Marc http://thelastchancetexaco.com/principles/hope-principles/change-for-the-better/comment-page-1/#comment-1357 Marc Mon, 22 Sep 2008 04:59:40 +0000 http://thelastchancetexaco.com/?p=709#comment-1357 You will definitely be able to earn a living. But dependable transport, plus insurance, plus much higher rents means you want to come with a cushion. But I'm all for it, make no mistake. You will definitely be able to earn a living. But dependable transport, plus insurance, plus much higher rents means you want to come with a cushion.
But I’m all for it, make no mistake.

]]> By: Chris http://thelastchancetexaco.com/principles/hope-principles/change-for-the-better/comment-page-1/#comment-1354 Chris Sun, 21 Sep 2008 05:16:22 +0000 http://thelastchancetexaco.com/?p=709#comment-1354 Economic is a concern of course. One wants to travel with enough flow to land safely. But seriously, when has a white boy with good English skills not been able to make a living in LA? When I think about securing my future with an education my sense is that sooner is better than later. 2 years at LACC or SMC at a fraction of what I could get the same courses for here in Boise. I'm thinking of trying to leave in a year, Marc. And Dennis and I have already talked about going to the CMALA and the AALA. We'll see what happens. Economic is a concern of course. One wants to travel with enough flow to land safely. But seriously, when has a white boy with good English skills not been able to make a living in LA? When I think about securing my future with an education my sense is that sooner is better than later. 2 years at LACC or SMC at a fraction of what I could get the same courses for here in Boise.

I’m thinking of trying to leave in a year, Marc. And Dennis and I have already talked about going to the CMALA and the AALA.

We’ll see what happens.

]]> By: Marc http://thelastchancetexaco.com/principles/hope-principles/change-for-the-better/comment-page-1/#comment-1353 Marc Sun, 21 Sep 2008 03:27:39 +0000 http://thelastchancetexaco.com/?p=709#comment-1353 I have DONE West Hollywood, Hollywood, Silverlake, Santa Monica, LA as a every night bargoer and then every day tweeker, and now 4 years immersed in recovery, so I KNOW THIS TOPIC. We have hundreds of meetings a week here, you can swim in it 24/7 and never get bored. I get tempted all the time, but not by using, by the handsome and smart and supportive men in the rooms, and those are just the straight ones. It is very easy to avoid the bars and those dicey places on the internet, and very easy to fellowship all you want. Now, I do get the feeling that all the idea of all the men and all that desire makes you nervous, feels like a giant trigger, but do we ever get over that as human beings? The only thing worse than feeling that is not, in my book. At least here, there are tons of sober men who are going through the same thing. You can share about it to your heart's content. (And a lot of the best men are taken or emotionally unavailblbe or fucked up, but where isn't that the case?) I would say the bigger challenge is economic, and your 3 years of preparation should be geared toward making sure you'd make enough to live a decent life. It's not NY or San Fran, but it's certainly pricier than Boise. But there's a lot more opportunity and amazingly creative people. I saw Marc R. this morning by the way, and he spoke of you. He was very touched that you remembered him, and is enjoying being back in touch. I talked up your blog of course. He's a great guy. Maybe you can come down to the CMALA convention in March or AALA around Memorial Day and see for yourself. I have DONE West Hollywood, Hollywood, Silverlake, Santa Monica, LA as a every night bargoer and then every day tweeker, and now 4 years immersed in recovery, so I KNOW THIS TOPIC. We have hundreds of meetings a week here, you can swim in it 24/7 and never get bored. I get tempted all the time, but not by using, by the handsome and smart and supportive men in the rooms, and those are just the straight ones.
It is very easy to avoid the bars and those dicey places on the internet, and very easy to fellowship all you want. Now, I do get the feeling that all the idea of all the men and all that desire makes you nervous, feels like a giant trigger, but do we ever get over that as human beings? The only thing worse than feeling that is not, in my book. At least here, there are tons of sober men who are going through the same thing. You can share about it to your heart’s content. (And a lot of the best men are taken or emotionally unavailblbe or fucked up, but where isn’t that the case?)
I would say the bigger challenge is economic, and your 3 years of preparation should be geared toward making sure you’d make enough to live a decent life. It’s not NY or San Fran, but it’s certainly pricier than Boise. But there’s a lot more opportunity and amazingly creative people.
I saw Marc R. this morning by the way, and he spoke of you. He was very touched that you remembered him, and is enjoying being back in touch. I talked up your blog of course. He’s a great guy.
Maybe you can come down to the CMALA convention in March or AALA around Memorial Day and see for yourself.

]]> By: Chris http://thelastchancetexaco.com/principles/hope-principles/change-for-the-better/comment-page-1/#comment-1351 Chris Sat, 20 Sep 2008 18:36:27 +0000 http://thelastchancetexaco.com/?p=709#comment-1351 yeah, it does. thank you yeah, it does.

thank you

]]> By: Stephanie http://thelastchancetexaco.com/principles/hope-principles/change-for-the-better/comment-page-1/#comment-1350 Stephanie Sat, 20 Sep 2008 17:59:30 +0000 http://thelastchancetexaco.com/?p=709#comment-1350 I hear you. You won't be there forever, right? It reallysucks feeling trepped! I hear you. You won’t be there forever, right? It reallysucks feeling trepped!

]]> By: Chris http://thelastchancetexaco.com/principles/hope-principles/change-for-the-better/comment-page-1/#comment-1347 Chris Sat, 20 Sep 2008 08:02:21 +0000 http://thelastchancetexaco.com/?p=709#comment-1347 I have hated boise since the day I got here from sweden. this isn't my life. it's a trap. a spiritual sink hole. i stay here out of fear. and acting out of fear is a bigger problem than just boise. fear has kept me in bondage. fear keeps me small. fear keeps me from being what i'm supposed to be. and as long as i'm here there is almost not chance that it will change. i've only lived in 2 cities in the last 25 years, steph. one i've always hated and one i've always loved. why should i stay in the one i hate? if i add going back to school to the equation it gets worse. 2 years of undergrad community college in LA would cost less than $700 a year (tuition and fees) versus $4,632 at BSU. staying here is retarded. coming back was stupid. coming back to boise is one of the top 5 stupidest things i ever did. I have hated boise since the day I got here from sweden. this isn’t my life. it’s a trap. a spiritual sink hole. i stay here out of fear. and acting out of fear is a bigger problem than just boise. fear has kept me in bondage. fear keeps me small. fear keeps me from being what i’m supposed to be. and as long as i’m here there is almost not chance that it will change.

i’ve only lived in 2 cities in the last 25 years, steph. one i’ve always hated and one i’ve always loved. why should i stay in the one i hate?

if i add going back to school to the equation it gets worse. 2 years of undergrad community college in LA would cost less than $700 a year (tuition and fees) versus $4,632 at BSU. staying here is retarded. coming back was stupid. coming back to boise is one of the top 5 stupidest things i ever did.

]]> By: Stephanie http://thelastchancetexaco.com/principles/hope-principles/change-for-the-better/comment-page-1/#comment-1346 Stephanie Sat, 20 Sep 2008 07:26:43 +0000 http://thelastchancetexaco.com/?p=709#comment-1346 Moving back to Hollywood may sound nice Chris, but things are never quite as good as you may remember them. Be glad you are where you are. Your life is what you make of it. God knows I don't want to live in freakin Alaska and freeze my ass off the rest of my life! But, I've come into my own here (somewhat) and this has brought me to the present time and place. I like you have strong desires to be somewhere else, and that in itself scares me. What am I really trying to accomplish by relocating? I want the feeling I imagine will happen if I move. Moving and thinking of a "New"life brings me all kinds of warm and fuzzy feelings. I like to start new. Leave all the crap behind me and start fresh. Begin over again. I get into a bad cycle because of that. I like to erase what happened before....It's easy for me to just move and start over. Staying where you are at and facing things headon, living with a past that is out there for all to see is what I find admirable. I wonder if "normal" people feel like this? I would probably move every other year if it wern't for my daughter! Chris, stay strong and know you are where you are supposed to be. I am proud of you! Moving back to Hollywood may sound nice Chris, but things are never quite as good as you may remember them. Be glad you are where you are. Your life is what you make of it. God knows I don’t want to live in freakin Alaska and freeze my ass off the rest of my life! But, I’ve come into my own here (somewhat) and this has brought me to the present time and place. I like you have strong desires to be somewhere else, and that in itself scares me. What am I really trying to accomplish by relocating? I want the feeling I imagine will happen if I move. Moving and thinking of a “New”life brings me all kinds of warm and fuzzy feelings. I like to start new. Leave all the crap behind me and start fresh. Begin over again. I get into a bad cycle because of that. I like to erase what happened before….It’s easy for me to just move and start over. Staying where you are at and facing things headon, living with a past that is out there for all to see is what I find admirable. I wonder if “normal” people feel like this? I would probably move every other year if it wern’t for my daughter! Chris, stay strong and know you are where you are supposed to be. I am proud of you!

]]> By: warrior scout http://thelastchancetexaco.com/principles/hope-principles/change-for-the-better/comment-page-1/#comment-1343 warrior scout Fri, 19 Sep 2008 21:01:17 +0000 http://thelastchancetexaco.com/?p=709#comment-1343 there are more contradictions to the figures around if you take the time to look. even if not, know that people recover... they stop and stay stopped.. there are more contradictions to the figures around if you take the time to look. even if not, know that people recover… they stop and stay stopped..

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