I love places like you describe here. I am unconventional. I thrive in places like that.

thats cool meditation energy. you get it where people meditate. every time you do ‘good’ stuff, the energy gets ? lighter. cant describe it, but you can FEEL it when you are in it.
when we help other alcoholics we are improving our own mental environment in a similar way. and other people can feel it too when we speak to them after thinking of others.
what i mean is, the thing you describe feeling here is REAL. no its not visible to the normal human eye, but its REAL.
and when you do stuff like this trip, or helping others, or doing the steps, you MOVE TOWARDS, and BECOME LIKE, ‘that’ thing you are feeling.
cool huh? other people benefit from it too, which is nice.

anyway glad you are basking in the ‘grouo soup’ as they call it..

sometimes the after effects of these kinds of trips can be tough. the old life can seem wanting. unsatisfying. the old habits are like an uncomfortable pair of shoes, and we are sometimes forced to cut away the dead wood. old freinds. old dreams are cast aside. we ‘want’ less. we can become nihilistic.

if you can cope beyond that point, then the world falls into place once again, on a slightly different footing. can seem a bit depressing because the ‘world’ looks so hollow’ but its alright really.
you just gotta keep on keeping on, even if it all looks a bit of a sham

‘whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.’

http://www.fleurdelis.com/desiderata.htm

yes and i always knew you were paying attention btw, but nice of you to say so anyway

yep, the mind is a gibbering bafoon, but most of us just havent noticed hehe
well be patient with the unfolding ‘gibber’ and perhaps it will quiet down a bit
all sounds very healthy. It is good to see that you are able to recognize your old need to cling to the idea of a deity, and that you learn to see that this is not a reliable interpretation of reality.. whatever that it? reality is sooo much weirder than we ever thought all we can do rally is enjoy the ride

Bill Hicks: What is the point to Life

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q95kX_EP2Nk

this is about right