Recovered From Crystal Meth | Recovered From A Hack | A New Design For Living and Blogging

I guess one way to get a site redesign done is to get motivated by being hacked.  There are still things I’d like to change but I think I’m on the right track; and I really like the header photo.  God bless those stock photo agencies.

In the old days I would have just gotten mad and deleted the whole thing.  Or dicked around with it until it was dead.  It must say something about recovery if I find that I am able to look at the problem, work on a solution, and then execute the solution.  A design for living that works in tough going, right?

It hasn’t hurt either that I’ve been stuck in bed for a couple of days with an ear infection.  The antibiotics are kicking in and I’m beginning to feel much better.  The other health problem I am addressing, or readdressing, is the whole smoking thing.  I was actually off cigarettes again when I started dating that freak, who said he didn’t smoke, but did, and I’m afraid that I started smoking again.  Every time I fail at quitting, trying again gets a little bit harder.

This time I’m trying Chantix.  I’ve used a lot of outside help with my recovery from crystal meth addiction, so why shouldn’t I do the same with smoking?  I’m 1270 days off methamphetamines.  Hopefully I can get that last monkey off my back.

I’m still not willing to give up on the idea of a relationship, regardless of the reaming I received at the hands of my probation officer because she elected to believe a pack of lies she heard from a sociopath.  (At the end of the lecture I asked her, knowing what she knows about addiction, who she really believed; someone who was sober or someone with a pending DUI.  Of course she demanded a UA – which I passed.)

Back to the holding out for love.  Maybe it will happen.  Maybe it won’t.  But I’m not going to let this experience poison me on the idea.  And I’m not going to get high over it.