Wow, I’ve been sober for 600 days. That’s like alot.
My gratitude for my sobriety is as strong as ever. In the last week I’ve had the opportunity to be in the right place at the perfect time to show a couple of other addicts that it is possible to put together more than 4 or 5 days clean and that has been pretty amazing, too.
For all my kvetching about what’s wrong, the simple fact of the matter is that every area of my life is profoundly better than it was 20 months ago. Even the things that I’ve talked about being stuck on, like dishes, are in better shape than they were the day before yesterday. There is a great deal of power in simply being honest about things like that, and then becoming willing to grow toward something better.
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i can honestly say that some things will always be wrong with day to day living. that doesn’t change. what has changed for me is my ability to accept that fact, to deal with these things or let them go, and find calm in the storms.
from the tone of your post, i would say you are walking in that direction, chris. you express yourself with a much different level of introspection. it’s much more pianissimo and subtlety. i feel that difference in you as a reader. can you feel it, too?
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Chris — I am very gratified to read this post, because you were the first crystal meth addict in recovery I encountered in the blogosphere. I have learned a lot from you, and have felt your pain and your joy, many times over. I do not go two days without checking in here. In short, you are very important to me, although we have never met.
Your struggle is mine, and many others too. Your blunt realism sometimes reflects the measure of pain in your life as you struggle, but I hope you also can see or believe on faith that the same words of yours bring comfort to those of us who share your ups and downs. Carry on, my friend, and congrats again.
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