Hammock

Chris, Chris… This is one area of life where the easiest way is not always the best or most rewarding…

Thanks for the visuals. I think I saw that in a movie once…..

Seriously, last summer, when my therapist (who is in the program) was trying to get me to stop drinking and going to meetings, I volunteered instead that I thought electric shock therapy or a partially lobotomy, something along those lines might work better for me.

Seriously. And if there had been someone local, I would have–he told me I was going to have to drive four hours for a consultation. I was so miserable. I later found out he was so concerned that I was actually going to kill myself that he was willing to help me get any help I was willing to take (he didn’t think anyone would really give me a lobotomy).

I soon spiraled to my own personal less-than-zero and checked into rehab. But, I sometimes wonder what that me would be like. Would I be able to experience the things I feel now, good and bad?

My objective wasn’t to quit drinking, and I had already quit using meth. I just didn’t want to feel that way anymore. I might could have achieved that objective, but I don’t know that I could have accomplished what and how I feel today.

The hammock needs you.