Looking for another solution.

In all honesty the 2 most possible of the three types of relationships that I might have with Dennis are the sponsor/sponsee and roommate/roommate relationships. I’m not so caught up in fantasy as to not realize that once he’s gotten through the steps he’s going to be a different person than he is now.  I’ll be different when I’ve done more work. And seriously, I’ve been free of romantic entanglements for so long now that, while I still have a “happily ever after” fantasy (Jane Austism if you will), I’m not at all sure that I have what it takes to, or even an interest in pursuing that.

I could tell that Dennis was pretty attached to the idea of being roommates. Actually it was his idea. He picked me up to go out for dinner and to a meeting together and he had a notebook and a list of all the reasons he could think of why it was a good idea. And I have to admit that they were good reasons. I know that when I was new, knowing that there was someone sober at home to spend time with and to be accountable to made staying on track much, much simpler. Home was a safe place to be and it never had been before.

When he suggested it I told him that I wasn’t going to make a decision till I talked to my sponsor. That didn’t stop me from jumping on the net and reading real estate listings. I even found a fantastic little 3 bedroom house at the right price here in my favorite neighborhood.

I still think it would be good for him to find a roommate; someone who is sobere. And I still think it would be a good idea for me to do the same.  I’ve lived alone for 6 months now. And I do better with someone else around. The other thing I thought is that there is an apartment across the street from me. Maybe propinquity would be enough of a change to improve things for both of us.

I’m going to see my sponsor later today and I need to have him show me how we write inventory on this kind of thing.