Honesty

I’m trying a little expirement in extreme practice of the principles in a specific area of my life that I requires specific behavior that very, very few people, addict or no, ever do. Am I above the law?  The practice of humility requires that I answer no to that question.  And if I am not above [...]

  More and more I’m beginning to think that if one gets sober and stays sober it is entirely by happenstance; that no amount of effort, no profound experience, no treatment program, no great desire, no necessity, has the power to get and keep any of us sober. And I certainly don’t have the power to produce [...]

My friend Robert’s sponsor told him early on that he can say anything he wants to in a meeting, anything at all, so long as it’s honest. I guess my pride is intact on some level or something because I don’t do that, at least not at meeting level. I share honestly, mind you. I just [...]

I was going to pay my rent early, because I could, sort of. I have the money, but not the cash. And I intended to get up early this morning and go to the bank before I went to work today, but that didn’t happen either. Yesterday was an incredibly long day. Now that I’m back [...]

I just hate it when I suddenly realize the truth behind those stupid things we say to each other in meetings. Keep it simple, stupid? Don’t you dare call me stupid. Motherfucker. But there you go. I am making too hard a work of a simple thing. Recovering addicts and alcoholics everywhere, from every walk of [...]

“There are those, too, who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders, but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest.” - Alcoholics Anonymous, Page 58 That pretty much describes me at any given point in my history; emotionally and mentally ‘disordered’, gravely. I have at various times been diagnosed with everything [...]

Well, yeah, so he called last night. He’s in jail now, you know. His mugshot. Arrested on my birthday. But not till he was hours late. I didn’t know he’d been arrested till two days later. He called last night to tell me that his parole officer was recommending that he be returned to prison to serve [...]