Early Recovery From Crystal Meth Addiction
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Things are improving. For me. But last night I received an e-mail regarding one of the guys that I was in treatment with that broke my heart. I could fall off the planet and the world would end for no one. But this guy has two young kids. He is [...]
remove every doubt that keeps us apart
I wish you could know what it means to be me
Then you’d see and agree
that every man should be free.
I Wish I Knew How it Feels to Be Free, Jay Haggard
It’s funny how a few days of Lexapro and a little crush can lift one’s spirits. Despite the [...]
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And trying to get ahead
It’s the bitch of living
Just getting out of bed
It’s the bitch of living
And getting what you get
It’s the bitch of living
And knowing this is it
God, is this it?
This can’t be it
Oh God, what a bitch!
Bitch of Living, Spring Awakening
Woke up this morning. Stumbled out of bed. Got vertigo and [...]
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I’m through with playing by the rules
Of someone else’s game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It’s time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!
It’s time to try
Defying gravity
Defying Gravity from Wicked
Last night, as I was walking to my aftercare group, I happened to pass an old ‘friend’ on the street. [...]
We get to carry each other, carry each other
U2, One
One of the things I started thinking about yesterday afternoon as I dragged myself out of bed for a cigarette was wether or not by allowing myself to be overcome by depression I wasn’t actually choosing depression as my Higher Power. That was a pretty [...]
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Ive been knocked out of the race
But Ill get better”
Sting, Lithium Sunset
I’m trying to give myself a break, because I had bronchitis and all. But objectively, I feel like what’s going on is clinical depression. When I got to treatment I was full on manic. That slowed down. I bounced [...]
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I wanted to share this article with you. It’s among the best written and most comprehensive I’ve ever read. During my first battle with crystal meth addiction I lived in Long Beach, CA. Even then, back in ‘92, Long Beach had a bigger crystal meth problem than anywhere I had ever been, [...]
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Thats the pain that cuts a straight line down through the heart.
We call it love.
“Origin of Love” from “Hedwig and the Angry Inch” by Stephen Trask
One of the things I love most about 12 step recovery is that it calls on me to surrender my will and my life over to the care of [...]
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And I’ll be walking
Till the day I expire
Sometimes I lay down
No more can I do
But then I go on again
Because you ask me to
Up to the Mountain (MLK Song) - Patty Griffin Children Running Through
“I saw a documentary on him and that last speech the day before he died in Memphis, the ‘Up to [...]
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But to my credit I did go to the clinic yesterday and get some antibiotics. I don’t know the medical term but my sinuses and lungs have been carefully coated with rubber cement. I wish I could say that I’m adjusting well but I’m kind of struggling. I’ve been faking it well. [...]
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