Enjoy the Ride

Reprinted from February 29, 2008 I love this picture. I love it on several different levels. It just this second occurred to me, for example, that I’ve never seen any Benedictines on a roller coaster. There isn’t much “ora et labora” in an amusement park. ‘Letting go’ is a concept that Buddhists ‘get’ immediately, viewing attachment as the source […]

The Transitory & The Universal

It’s been a long time since I wrote. Even longer since I wrote honestly and meaningfully. In the early days of this online journal I wrote because I was isolated. I wrote because I was lonely. I wrote because when I first started exploring the idea that permanent recovery might be possible there were no […]

Rock Bottom

You hear this all the time. “An addict has to hit rock bottom before they’ll recover.” Let me be clear, the concept of “rock bottom” only has value as part of a personal narrative — as part of the story a person with SUD (substance use disorder, otherwise and disparagingly known as an addict) tells […]

Homecoming

One of the things about a relapse is that you can see it coming and still feel powerless to do anything about it. In 12 step recovery they often tell us, however, that “in God’s economy nothing is wasted.” My relapse was a waste but I refuse to let the experience be wasted. I’ll tell […]