The Learning Circus

I remember in the circus learning that the clown was the prince, the high prince. I always thought that the high prince was the lion or the magician, but the clown is the most important.
-Roberto Benigni

And, we’re back.

At 15 months sober -today- it takes me all of 15 seconds to go from zero to crazy.  I went to a meeting early tonight and was sitting in the room madly scribbling inventory when a sponsee walked in.  I’m always happy to share the truth with those young men.  I work at being sober.  I practice the program outlined in the book.  He got to see that I also go from crazy to serene in 15 minutes.

The photo above is one of 2 framed photos I picked up at Renewal for $8 the day before I moved in to my new home.  They were in the sale bin waiting for me.  I couldn’t eliminate the reflection from the glass so the image is a little distorted here but they are original photos taken by some local chick on a trip to Florence, Italy.   A picture that spoke to me of a relationship I understand taken in a city I long to visit and at a price I could afford.  HP is fuckin’ awesome!

So, since the internet just started working at 10:20PM and I finally got my taxes filed at 11:06 (early for me -one year I actually made the deadline with 2 minutes to spare) and since it is now WAY past my bedtime I’m only here to advise you that I yet live and I have this picture.  And this picture is my life.  And this picture is my day.  And this picture is my solution.

I went from zero to crazy all on my own.  I’ve done that all my life.  Really it’s all I ever managed to do.  But when I was finally done, when the rice bowl was empty, when I had a beginners mind, when I came as a child for help, a bunch of clowns showed me what to do.  I practice doing what the clowns showed me.  Now I can get back down from crazy with astonishing speed.

Thank God for those clowns.  They’re princes.