Let’s start at the very beginning; a very good place to start.

“Let’s see if I can make this easy.” - Maria Kutschera von Trapp

My experience in recovery and in taking the steps is that what began as a “turning point” or a “moment of clarity” 51 weeks ago was the beginning of a series of points or moments which have each brought me to a keener understanding of my addiction and so have helped me remain willing to continue to seek to know this Higher Power which has done for me what I could not do for myself, namely, keep me sober. Doesn’t that sound wonderful? How could someone not be impressed with such a change of heart, such a psychic rearrangement, especially when it is the result of applying one’s self to learning to live by a set of principles that are so noble that even those with spiritual prejudice can embrace them as ethical and worthy?

In my own experience those moments and points can best be described as ‘rude awakenings.’

I had one today, related closely to my first one.

At 11 months sober and 12 months since that first moment of clarity, nearly a year since my Creator gave me a vital first step, I realized that, um, my life is unmanageable.