We are the Actors, He is the Director

Well, actually, I am. At least from 9 to 5. Today I start my new job as the Alternative Donations Director for the NFP that I work for. I’ll be in charge of leasing or purchasing warehouse space in Boise and Nampa, Idaho and setting up manned donation centers in them, developing our corporate giving program and soliciting those gifts, writing grants to fund various programs, developing a work skills development program for our clients as well as a marketable service to employ those participants, build community relations and use those to create opportunities for our supporters to give in all ways other than the ones currently being used.

I know about half of what I need to know to do this job well. I’m relying on the fact that I’m bright and happen to know a lot of people in this town to help me learn the rest. I may be ‘the director’ but I’m not the expert. It’s a far cry from the cheesy part time job that a month ago I didn’t dare apply for and didn’t think I deserved; that, considering who I had become, I didn’t deserve. Let me explain.

I’m not the kind of guy who gets to do things like this. I’m not the kind of guy who gets to be recognized as valuable. I can’t be a friend. I can’t be a good son. I can’t pay my rent or bills. In fact I had all of the symptoms of a spiritual malady described on page 52 of the book Alcoholics Anonymous;

“We were having trouble with personal relationships, we couldn’t control our emotional natures, we were a prey to misery and depression, we couldn’t make a living, we had a feeling of uselessness, we were full of fear, we were unhappy, we couldn’t seem to be of real help to other people.”

Overcoming that, or any part of it, could hardly have been done on my own. While the success I have been given isn’t promised till the 9th step, it is an answer to the 3rd step prayer:

” . . . build with me and do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy power, Thy love and Thy way of life.”

I may be a director in this tiny area of the temporal plane, but my Creator is the director of my life. My job is the execution of the ordered direction of His thought.