In the Right Place at the Perfect Time

In the Spiritual Experience it talks about the change that takes place for those of us in recovery being apparent to others long before we realize it ourselves.  I’ve spent a bit of time recently looking at my older posts and it’s clear to me that I have indeed come a  long way.  I’d like to say that it hasn’t taken any effort.  It doesn’t seem like it has.  Mostly what I’ve done is “suit up and show up.”  We hear that “meeting makers make it.”  I’ve certainly done my share of meetings, even now averaging two on weekdays and often four on weekends.  In my first 90 days out of the Walker Center I easily went to 240 meetings.“Meeting makers make it” is really only a half truth, though.  “Meeting makers make it” if they do the steps.  And I have been.  Granted, I’ve balked a bit at my 4th step work recently, actually putting the work down for about four days.  My sponsor kindly (for once) pointed out last night that the book says “at some of these we balked,” not “some of us balked at these.”

I’ve been working at job I didn’t think I deserved, at the place I didn’t dare apply, in the body of a person who hadn’t been employable for over three years.  Because I’m grateful for that, and because it is what I believe my Creator would have me do, I show up on time and do my job to the best of my ability and do it cheerfully.  Yesterday my employer gave me a huge promotion.  A huge promotion.  From part-time to full time.  A 30% raise (I’ll actually be able to live now).  A company car.  And an interesting, challenging and fun job which my particular, bizarre skill set and temperament makes me uniquely suited for.  All I’ve done is “suit up and show up” and do what my Creator would have me do.

For once I’m clear that this “could hardly have been accomplished” on my own.  After the meeting with my boss I picked up a pen and started working on my 4th step again.